Its been so long since i been on here to talk about the other half. Well things are kind of upside down to say the least. Lately its been non stop fights over stupid things that don’t matter. Iv been feeling not good enough because I want to give her everything she deserves but i cant and i feel like a complete failure. Feel like she wants me to be someone that can be that but idk if thats even true i think im probably over thinking but it takes a toll on us. I get pissed off and aggravated all the time because of it. But now if i think about it that shouldn’t matter the only thing that should matter is that i love her ad thats it.

I might not be able to give her what she wants all the time or take her out to ll these places i wanna go but i know when i can i will. But the only thing that really matters is that i love her, when i asked my friend about it his gf said i do wish he took me out and did things for me but i know he loves me and i wouldn’t trade him the perfect boyfriend. (idk if the person i love feels like that but i know the old person i use to know thought like that and i miss her.) And well i am pretty slow and stupid and i know they where right, i get so aggravated all the time about it but i love her and thats all. Taking her out and giving her the world dosnt mean anything, money cant buy happiness and money cant buy love. When i can i will give her the world but before that i want her to feel as loved as she use to feel. and these insecurities and bullshit need to go away i hate them.

Nicolly stephane (babe) im sorry for not treating you how i use to, Im sorry for being cold towards you. Sorry for “changing” but my feelings havnt changed. Sorry for not being your “everything” like i use to but im still here like i always been just wish you realize that sometimes. There is so much to say but i really dont know how to put it in words wish you could understand but you’ll figure out some how i know you